Sunday, June 25, 2006
SO... i went to church for the evening mass... was goofing off making fun of my mother the whole time... and after we went to ntuc to get stuff... waited bloody long for the bus 28... then my mother and sister wanted to get more stuff at shop n save... so did i... but i got dumped with the bags we got earlier with my protests left unheard... I get that all the time... Bloody hell... I felt like throwing the bags away and just going home... but i didn't. I was a good girl and just cussed my way back home...
As the eldest in the family. i get dumped with pretty much everything... Going to the bank to deposit money for my parents, going to the clinic to get a queue number in the morning when i am not even the one who's sick... what's more, no one queues for me when i am sick... what the hell... I get blamed for everything, sometimes even my sister's bad habits and grades... Geez... Even my sister bullies me... Got to do everything she asks me, she can't even do me a favour... I'd get a "why can't you just help your sister? why are you so selfish?" Hey, my sister is a hulking judoka who can do everything for herself and is getting too dependent on people giving her answers instead of finding out herself... she can be smart when she wants to... so when i was praying at church i asked God to tell my sister to be more independent and find things out for herself (other than asking Him to help me find a boyfriend... lol) cuz she asked me to help her do her a math homework when we got home and i was so not going to... no no...
And that's not the end of my problems... my parents think i don't have a social life... As if i don't have to juggle studies and work and chores... They're always asking me to visit my grandmother and help her out once in a while (it's not that i don't like my grandmother, i've got other things to do...) or accompany her to the doctor, look after my parents' shop while my mother goes shopping... I'd rather work and earn money than do all these stuff... how come my sister doesn't get all these crap? "Cuz you're the eldest, we're training you..." Blah blah blah... rubbish...
My sister can just as easily skip judo trainings and outings with friends than i can skip commitments like work and school... I hang out with friends only after lessons and before work, which is not enough time for stuff like going to my grandmother's house...
Seeing as i am making the transition from kid to adult, i worry that i might just become as contradicting as my parents... oh well...
As the eldest in the family. i get dumped with pretty much everything... Going to the bank to deposit money for my parents, going to the clinic to get a queue number in the morning when i am not even the one who's sick... what's more, no one queues for me when i am sick... what the hell... I get blamed for everything, sometimes even my sister's bad habits and grades... Geez... Even my sister bullies me... Got to do everything she asks me, she can't even do me a favour... I'd get a "why can't you just help your sister? why are you so selfish?" Hey, my sister is a hulking judoka who can do everything for herself and is getting too dependent on people giving her answers instead of finding out herself... she can be smart when she wants to... so when i was praying at church i asked God to tell my sister to be more independent and find things out for herself (other than asking Him to help me find a boyfriend... lol) cuz she asked me to help her do her a math homework when we got home and i was so not going to... no no...
And that's not the end of my problems... my parents think i don't have a social life... As if i don't have to juggle studies and work and chores... They're always asking me to visit my grandmother and help her out once in a while (it's not that i don't like my grandmother, i've got other things to do...) or accompany her to the doctor, look after my parents' shop while my mother goes shopping... I'd rather work and earn money than do all these stuff... how come my sister doesn't get all these crap? "Cuz you're the eldest, we're training you..." Blah blah blah... rubbish...
My sister can just as easily skip judo trainings and outings with friends than i can skip commitments like work and school... I hang out with friends only after lessons and before work, which is not enough time for stuff like going to my grandmother's house...
Seeing as i am making the transition from kid to adult, i worry that i might just become as contradicting as my parents... oh well...
what we could have been, 6/25/2006 09:10:00 PM.
