My day off is over... Gosh, so fast... went out for karaoke with my kakis (i'm the youngest at 17, the oldest is 40+ going 50...haha...)... i will post pictures and videos once i am free... they are always asking, why don't i join a singing contest? because i hate queueing, and waiting... it's a waste of time... if the chance comes at the right time, i will take it up, but now is not the right time...

people, i will be officially working at terminal 2 from april 11th... you will finally see me in action cuz the store is outside in the visitors area, rather than in the transit...all of you are welcome... i'll finally get my bonus next month... woohoo...

I miss you.

I miss the times we spent just talking.

the times we spent just sitting on the steps just enjoying each others company.

the feeling that i could tell you anything on the world.

the feeling of trust.

the confidence that i knew you and each and every one of your habits (including being late).

the good morning messages you sent.

the good night messages you sent.

the long midnight talks we had.

the movies we watched and shared drinks at.




its all gone now.

you pretend like i'm invisible.

i hide my hurt and reciprocate.

it's hard.

so much that i wish all this never happened in the beginning.

Ha.

And i thought i finally could have a nice day off. The phone rings at 8am. I hang up, thinking it was the alarm. In the moment i gained total conciousness of the nature of the ringing emanating from my precious handphone and pressing the cancel button, i realise it's be who's calling. Too late. I know she will call again anyway. In the next second she did.

Ha.

Guess what. I'm needed at work. I thought i was supposed to and just did missed seeing my name on the schedule when she called. But no. Someone else didn't show up at work (cafe, that's why she called... limited manpower in that area..) Fine, then... I got up and went to the airport.

Ha.

Leftover sandwiches not wasted. Expired stuff not wasted. Products not stocked up. Equipment not cleaned properly. Mind you, i'm not the cleanest/neatest person around. Just clean/neat enough to satisfy. Luckily there weren't many customers, just fussy (read: bloody irritating) ones.

After TWELVE STRAIGHT DAYS at work without an off day, tomorrow holds a day of restful sleep, karaoking (whether with my karaoke kakis or at home with my mother)... I love working, but you do need a break once in a while, don't you?



to yushan: your tagboard is a war zone... i don't dare tag... haha...

Disclaimer: if you are from TN3 or don't like nasty words... piss off! Cuz here's one pissed off girl blogging... contains mild swearing... i'm not that vulgar...


Just came back from my attachment at TN3... the managers were nice, though no one can match CA1's management team... but the CLs were bloody FUCKED UP! Makes me embarrassed to be one... especially the BAYOT/BAPOK... you know damn well who you are... who take his product all that... Hello, i didn't take anything from your line... and it's you who is too slow... And get your fucking priorities right... you're doing the mds, your customers are prepared to wait and can afford to wait a little while... whereas the people at the counter can't, stupid piece of shit!

And note to the TN3 crew, please mind your manners and don't push and shove, the place is cramped already... imagine if you were working at CA1, you'd fall on your smelly asses! You can say EXCUSE ME, it's not so hard is it? Is it so hard to smile too? And the store's RM Josias was like trying to ask me to transfer there? FUCKING HELL NO! Working with such shitty crew with no manners, i'd rather quit... but you're nice, managers, i like you guys... i wouldn't mind transferring if not for the crew...

I've just realised (ok, not just but a few hours ago at work...) that i've bought a ton of magazines in the past week, but they've hardly been read... They're still in a neat pile under my PJs on my bed... I mostly just look at the pictures for the Chinese mags, i'm too lazy to switch to 'chinese' mode...

Nothing can express my emotional/mental situation right now... I am puzzled over the results of the events that have occurred over the past year... Thinking back, this time last year i was waiting for poly life to begin... I had certain issues with that i had to overcome (though it turned out like a collapsed souffle... has yet to be solved due to my lack of initiative to make the first move...) Growing up has really sped up since leaving secondary school... and starting a life out of one's comfort zone (i.e. secondary school and home...) and stepping out into the eyes of the world (quite literally, since i work at the airport...) at work and an educational environment like a polytechnic... I must say that i've matured more this past year than my secondary years put together... but very often maturity is a double-edged sword at my age... cuz you are old enough to know what you want, yet not old enough to make a decision...




oh and um, happy birthday to rizal and eng hong... although i know you guys don't read my blog...

"Exactly. And that's not easy, because you don't just stop loving someone. But their changing into people you don't recognise helps. It hardens the heart. What you're left with is a longing for how things were long ago, not for the more recent past."

quote by
Matt Malone in
The Wedding Day by
Catherine Alliot.


Lovely, how true...

Guess what? Nothing! That's just it! My life has just been work and home and most like will remain as such till store closes on the 8th...

I should take a personal ad...
Female, looking to befriend pleasant looking guys who are considerate and loyal, age 18-28.
i am nice, thoughtful and pleasant with an interest in asian pop music and dance.
interested parties, please tag or email...

Haha... what a joke!
just shows how bored i am...

The closure of the store is looming... I need to make a decision asap... i want to follow be or marg to their new store... be says she's (i get seriously disturbed deciding to put he/she...haha) going to pulau ubin to open a store (it's a joke, duh...) so the rest of us are going to pulau ubin too... See you! A list has been up for crew to choose which store we want to go to, and most of us has signed on the pulau ubin one... haha...
life's monotony is so contradicting... We want something exciting yet reject the change that promises excitement and then ask for stability...

What's wrong with you? Finally, we could talk in a civil manner and you give me that kind of dumb attitude? To think i... Oh, forget it...

Had a great day today... Caught up with winston and jiemin and aziana... Winston, jiemin and i went to catch Happily N'ever After... Predictable, but funny... Me and winston were like 'i wanna watch!' at every trailer... Bought the ilovesuper artistes book! Then jiemin had to go meet another friend and so it was to the airport for me and winston, where we met aziana... Adilah was at store and came out to meet us and gossip... goodness... how i missed those times... a certain someone was certainly taken off guard at our visit...

I'm counting down and getting depressed the the days inch by... reunion on April 8 for the crew and managers...

So, based on the key below, i'm...

N: Dead Sexy. (Hmm...)
I: Very crazy. (Not in an outgoing way though...)
C: is wild and crazy (Ditto.)
O: Best in bed. *blush*
L: Loved by everyone (Hopefully...)
E: A GOOD KISSER (Has yet to be proven....)


KEY:
A: likes to drink
B: Likes people
C: is wild and crazy
D: Has one of the best personalities ever.
E: A GOOD KISSER
F: People adore you.
G: never let people tell you what to do
H: Have a very good personality and looks.
I: Very crazy
J: Lives life for fun.
K: Really silly.
L: Loved by everyone
M: Makes dating fun.
N: Dead Sexy.
O: Best in bed.
P: Popular with all types of people.
Q: A hypocrite.
R: Very crazy
S: Easy to fall in love with
T: Loyal to those you love.
U: Really like to chill.
V: Not judgemental.
W: Very broad minded.
X: Never let people tell you what to do.
Y: One of the best damn bf/gf anyone could ask for.
Z: Always ready.

I'm really sad... three more weeks to the closure of the store... everyone else is sad too... the memories, the bitching, the fighting, the quarrel... that only belonged to us... now we are going to be separated... I decided to resign because i don't want to be transferred... it's us or nothing... while it will be another job hunt, i only want to work with my beloveds... the ones that i can joke with, play around with and bully and be bullied in the name of fun... in the blink of an eye it's been two years... The hundreds (maybe even thousands) of customers that i've served, the burgers that i've made... the experiences i gained, the people i've seen come and go... I'm depressed... (and i predict a spending spree to get over this...) I really don't want to go... (anyway if you're wondering, it's BK that's taking over...)

Anyway, we were short staffed this morning and i was in the kitchen with vivian, who had to do transition... We ran out of muffins and eggs... Can you imagine... anyway, thank god there was auntie jenny who helped out...

So the word's out... McDonald's CA1 is going to be history end april... I'm faced with a crossroads of sorts... get a transfer or resign... the latter feeling stronger at the mo... i will miss everyone... even the irritating/idiotic people... It's been 2 years... transferring is one thing, but transferring cuz of the store being closed is depressing... you can't even get an attachment back there again... The managers are sad, so are the crew, especially those who have never left the store or have been with us for so long... i still got about a month to decide what i want to do though... People, if you guys have any temp jobs that pay well (min. $5 an hour, that's little with my qualifications which includes 3 NSRS and 1 WSQ...), tag/msg/email me... I'll be more than happy to oblige...

tears will not flow but the hurt remains...

I haven't been awake enough lately to blog, cuz i've been working my butt off... worked closing for the second time on tuesday... understaffed lately... weirdness... *SIGH* Transition yesterday, considering it's 1.20am now... Wasn't in much of a mood... got nagged at as usual and bullied verbally... but i don't really care... i guess they kind of realised it cuz they started asking me if i hated them for it... but i don't hate them, just that it gets on my nerves sometimes, i do things my way and it doesn't affect you so beat it...

but the good news is i'm currently changing some material aspects of myself... Got new glasses (i look like a teacher now)... New contacts (FreshKon Alluring Eyes!) and... and... a new handphone! Woooo... Nokia 6288... I'm just so so happy...

Got work less than 12 hours from now... So i guess it's time to catch some Zs...

I thought it was over...
It wasn't.
Being this close to you again
Brought back what i didn't want to remember...
We could hardly look at each other in the eyes
Nor speak directly to one another
It was fortunate that no one noticed my uneasiness
or just thought that i was tired
i need help
to stop feeling for you
to be able to face you again
to be able to be the friends we were once
to be able to love you again

I'm a great actress and you guys are fools. Ha!

My horoscope says that all will go well for me this week... and if things that happened today are anything to go by, i guess that is pretty accurate... oh, and too bad i don't buy lottery, or else i would be one rich girl...
Anyway... work today was pretty cool... cafe today, so it was a little lonely, but i found entertainment now and then (which includes washing dishes and prepping sandwiches... oh well, better than to die of boredom...) Be working for the next few days too... no life... wanna go watch a movie anyone?

Journey to the Real You
Here is the analysis:
1. You have 1 true friend.
2. You will have 1 true love before getting married.
3. It is your work ethic that you rest for just a minute.
4. Here is the description of your ideal mate: "Charismatic and 24-27 years old"
5. NOT TELLING is the person you will never get over for the rest of your life. (Haha... nothing's going to trick me into telling...)
6. You give 75% in a relationship.

Am finally finished with Hanazakarino Kimitachiheハナザカリノ　キミタチヘ aka Hana Kimi. Been working my butt off the past few days... even got some days at cafe... while i like doing cafe stuff, cuz it breaks the monotony of the usual mac stuff, it can get rather lonely... I actually have lots to finish at work... been putting it off for so long... but am resolving to finish it this semester break... Come to think of it, i've just finished a year at poly... Goodness... Anyway, you'd think in a job like mine, what is there to put off? Once you've knocked off, there's nothing else... well, it's the cldp... i took a year to finish... In fact it's only 3/4 finished... Dear god, help me...

The song playing on my blog right now is a duet by Evonne Hsu and Alicia Pan. The latter is Singaporean, and has mean vocals that i like alot...

眼看星星落下
窗外一点一点出现阳光
摸摸我的头
你说我很棒
我们都是这样
一面带着伤痕
一面飞翔
难过的时候有我在身旁
我陪你等天亮
拥抱着一起分享
能放心的哭一场
是再微笑的力量
只有你明白我的疯狂
不管故事有多长
世界对我太善良
这一路上有你
我变得坚强
你知道我多傻
在你面前从来不用逞强
听我说说话
让我靠一下
想要幸福却都跌跌撞撞
可是不要怕
比赛看谁早一点学会
就算逆风也能好好
带着祝福不再流泪
勇敢的飞
然后分享那种喜悦
有你在身旁嗯……

So true...

One Word to Oneself
Here is the analysis:
Your own personality is Cute. (*Yay*)
Your partner's personality is Affectionate. (Definitely hope so)
Your enemy's personality is Yuck. ( duh. haha.)
What you think about sex is Aroma. (w..huh?)
What you think about your own life is Peace. (*chillin*)
http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test8.aspx

Your Hidden Talent

Here is the analysis:
The Artist: You love freedom and want to follow your heart's desires. You might not be at your best when dealing with other people. Once you are given the opportunity to work your chosen way, your gift will shine. A tip for you is not to concentrate too much on your own work, but widen your focus and consider the opinions of other people.

What's your personality love style?

Here is the analysis:You desire a love that will last forever. You are quite serious about finding this type of love, and that's why you think carefully about the men that you meet before deciding whether you could really love them. You don't just develop a crush on someone overnight: you look at a person's personality and other aspects of their life before deciding to form an attachment. If a guy doesn't meet your expectations, you would rather be alone. Your love has to be perfect. Be careful though, you could be missing out on some worthy relationships because your standards are so high.

http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test80.aspx

What's on your mind?
Here is the analysis:

You'll drop everything to be with the partner of your dreams, and you'll give their sentimental presents rather than expensive ones. Nevertheless, your spontaneous nature does have a limit, and when the romance is over, you'll head back to work to pick up the pieces.

http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test93.aspx

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