Wednesday, October 04, 2006
Someone told me something that hit me hard... the more i am nonchalant about something, the more emotions/serious i am about the subject... Gosh, that seems to be true... I have bled... It's a known fact among my friends that i never cry when i'm sad, but when i'm angry... so if i am really hurt, i shrug it off with a smile... Wow, i am a step closer to self-actualisation, whatever that means... anyway, people always say i'm strong, but in truth, i'm not... i'm a hermit crab who has managed to find a pretty hard shell to hide in... It's hard for me to really get mad, just pissed that i get over after bitching... but i get hurt pretty often, and i don't know how to express it...
Like if i get ignored by someone i really 'zhong shi' (see as important), i hurt... i'll just do what i can to help you do what you want... I also hurt when people don't tell me i've offended them and treat me coldly all of a sudden... tell me and i'll apologise and do something about it... Another thing that bothers me is that i don't get equal treatment and often get forgotten... Yes, it's happened lots of times, at school, at work and at home... At home i don't mind so much cuz i'd rather be left to do my own thing... but outside, friends are the only people i can rely on...
Oh well... Here's something a little more light hearted...
Ok... so death is not really something light-hearted...
Geezus... Can't i die a little earlier? I just hope i've found what i've wanted by then *hint hint*...
Like if i get ignored by someone i really 'zhong shi' (see as important), i hurt... i'll just do what i can to help you do what you want... I also hurt when people don't tell me i've offended them and treat me coldly all of a sudden... tell me and i'll apologise and do something about it... Another thing that bothers me is that i don't get equal treatment and often get forgotten... Yes, it's happened lots of times, at school, at work and at home... At home i don't mind so much cuz i'd rather be left to do my own thing... but outside, friends are the only people i can rely on...
Oh well... Here's something a little more light hearted...
| You Will Die at Age 76 |
 You're pretty average when it comes to how you live... And how you'll die as well. |
Ok... so death is not really something light-hearted...
Geezus... Can't i die a little earlier? I just hope i've found what i've wanted by then *hint hint*...
what we could have been, 10/04/2006 01:38:00 AM.
