Tuesday, January 09, 2007
I'm really tired taking all the shit for other people... the sister thinks she's the boss of me or something... telling me to do this and that and expect me to pay for her stuff... just because mummy's in the phils... whatever... you think poly is a breeze? i may not look busy... but i struggle to get my assignments in on time... balance that with the freaks (of course not all) at work and the sister's friggin shitty attitude... you can't really expect me to be all smiley... I admit, i have a pretty uncontrollable temper and i tend to shoot off... but please, just because you don't hear me complaining about any crap doesn't mean i don't get as much crap... in fact i get more crap... i just choose not to bother anyone... unlike the sister, who thinks her problems are the end of the world... been there, done that... don't say it's because i'm smarter... it's because you're not willing to think... your mind's inflexible... and i'm supposed to leave you alone and take all the blame for what you've done? hell no...
i'm sorry i can't get all the things you want done daddy... but i'm really tired and pissed and frustrated over all these things, and you nagging and scolding is just irritating me more and nothing gets done... cuz i'll just be compelled to rebel and you'll just be tired... i know you're tired after work... so am i... a piece of advice to you: if you want things done your way, do it YOURSELF... you know i always do things my way, at my own pace... so do take note... and don't think you know me... cuz you don't... you may know certain things i choose to let on and my temper and all... but its all a mask... i really want to try to please you... but i'm breaking down too... i'm not a robot... i'm no super daughter... it's not like i want to forget things that you ask but i'm really breaking down... there's too much in my head that sometimes i feel like i'm going to faint... that's why i can't remember things too well anymore...
please forgive me...
i'm sorry i can't get all the things you want done daddy... but i'm really tired and pissed and frustrated over all these things, and you nagging and scolding is just irritating me more and nothing gets done... cuz i'll just be compelled to rebel and you'll just be tired... i know you're tired after work... so am i... a piece of advice to you: if you want things done your way, do it YOURSELF... you know i always do things my way, at my own pace... so do take note... and don't think you know me... cuz you don't... you may know certain things i choose to let on and my temper and all... but its all a mask... i really want to try to please you... but i'm breaking down too... i'm not a robot... i'm no super daughter... it's not like i want to forget things that you ask but i'm really breaking down... there's too much in my head that sometimes i feel like i'm going to faint... that's why i can't remember things too well anymore...
please forgive me...
what we could have been, 1/09/2007 11:22:00 PM.
